With one parent sick in the head and the other somewhat of an absentee, my younger years were confusing and hectic. I decided to create this blog because as a kid, I found an extreme lack of online resources for children of bipolar parents. I describe my experiences for the sake of anyone who can relate in whatever way.

Hopefully, I can make at least one person, smile, laugh or feel less alone with each post I put up.

You can call me Willow.

As an additional note: I have made some brutally honest posts about happenings in my life that contain graphic content. Read at your own risk.

  1. nicolemae85 says:

    While researching this exact subject via Google is when I came across your blog and I am so happy I did. I have gone back and read every single one of them and there were times I was saying to myself, ” This girl needs to get out of my head” haha. Alot of the same exact feelings you have been having I have been jotting down in a broke down journal myself for years. I am just now ready to start to share my story as well and hopefully I will have some blogs up myself shortly to share with the world. I feel your pain. You are not alone. I am 28 and my mother is 48. My stepfather has been a dissapointment lately from the lack of effort on his end when I know its giong to take a team effort to make real results happen. I feel the frustrations. I have reached out to him as an adult multiple times and the last response he made was, ” Youre our only help Obi Wan Kenobi”… Gee, thanks. It makes for a lonely world when you know its all on you to figure it out and figuring out a puzzle with multiple missing puzzle pieces can be difficult obviously and sometimes never resolved. Keep doing what you’re doing, stay strong, some day your mother may come back but be prepared for if she doesnt. Remember the good because you deserve that much for the both of you. Surround yourself with as much positive energy and people as you can because that is what will save you.

    ~ Be a willow and blow in the wind 😉

    ~ Nicole

    • Nicole,

      You have no idea how happy it made me to hear that my blog helped you in some way! I’m rooting for you in all of this and I know all too well just how hard it can be. I doubt your stepfather is ever really going to be any help, which makes me sad. In the end people don’t change and the only person you can really rely on is yourself. You’re probably also being so helpful that he’s happy just to leave it to you. Makes his life easier. Taking care of things enables other people to slack off. Don’t forget your own life, though, cause that’s easy to do.

      I know I’m not alone. The only reason I am writing this blog is because I wish I had been able to feel that way sooner and want to help others realize the same. I don’t think my mother is coming back, but I enjoy the rare peaceful times. Good luck in starting with your story. I’m not the most regular blogger, and I often don’t have a strong point to make, but thank you for reading what I have put out there.

      Keep me posted,

  2. nicolemae85 says:

    There generally isnt a point to their madness haha therefore its okay if there isnt a “moral” to every single one of your blogs. The resources are very limited, honestly, this is the first year ive even started looking for resources and with how long people have been dealing with these issues its sad to see how very little resources there still are. Looking for group conversations was kind of a last cry out for help just to make sure I wasnt crazy myself. I am just now dealing with the same thing you are with the fading memories due to them not acknowledging they existed either, its definitely frustrating. Especially when our last blow out was her asking me to tell her all the things she has done… the list was so long i couldnt even begin to start or even remember half of them which then of course that back fired in my face because now she thinks she did nothing wrong like always. the one thing that i will admit helped me greatly was seeing a Tarot Card reader, I go to the same gal every few months, generally right after or before a blow up (because its bi weekly lol) just to see if its ever going to end or if we will have a breakthrough (mainly seeing her get help or medicated) unfortunately she saw suicide. My mother has attempted and threatened it many times and as much as it breaks my heart, I probably wont be able to stop it and I know that probably will be her way of finding peace. I dont hate my mom but I do hate the illness because it has taken a mother away from me. Im sure you can relate with that feeling. You are younger and i will tell you now, do more for yourself sooner rather than later. I almost 30 and have just started to put my foot down and live, its a wonderful feeling, she hates it, but in these situations you have to to save your own sanity. Any time you ever want to talk or vent my ears/eyes are always open. I have a few friends that deal with the same stuff and let me tell you its a blessing to have them in my life.

    Take care 🙂

    • A tarot card reader is an interesting coping mechanism. I have never heard that one before.
      I relate with a lot of what you’re saying, and if you ever need an ear I am here as well. People like you are the reason this slightly disorganized blog even exists.


  3. nicolemae85 says:

    I feel the same way and trust me ill continue to follow your stories, hearing someone else dealing with the same thing always helps you feel less insane yourself right? When someone tells you constantly its you it is hard not to think that from time to time.

    I had to share with you, just recently how one of your blogs helped. Just this Sunday she had a blow up and melt down and before me and my fiance were headed over there to see her and try and calm her down I was having a slight anxiety attack. I went into my kitchen and I had a small picture of her up on my bookshelf, and right next to it was a carved figurine of a bear. i busted up laughing, we grabbed the bear and her picture and started making them fight while we made rawr sounds. We got such a chuckle it really made us realize how rediculous she is before we headed over there. Your Bear post was my absolute favorite since they really do act like bears and all your pre-planning strategies are exactly what needs to be done before entering their den 😉

    Have a great day.


    • Nicole,

      Sorry it took so long to reply. Somehow this post slipped through the cracks. You have no idea how much it means to me that I managed to help you out. My day is going to be a great one now.

      Keep going, and I’ll keep track of how you’re doing.


  4. nicolemae85 says:

    No worries, its hard to get on here every day due to life so never apologize about that. You have a great day, keep on writing 🙂


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